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    I am awful

    All the terrible things I did are finally coming together.
    I don’t feel so good. If you were probably in my situation, you’d know exactly how I feel.

    I feel guilty. I feel stressed. I am panicking. I don’t know who I am. I am lost.

    The only thing I know is, I am awful.
    I had this thread which you may read: https://www.growtopiagame.com/forums...-and-Depressed

    It has been two months since I made that thread. It’s about my so called “ challenges . “
    People said I’d feel better, and just forget. Yes, I felt better, but I could never forget it. I’m a sinner. My brain hurts, my heart hurts, and I feel so ashamed of myself.

    So let me just spill the beans, so at least, I could feel better!
    BETTER!!!

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    Hahhaha...

    Story:
    The year was 2019, this year. I was happy, cheerful, and so on. Positivity and stuff. Well, not really. I started to use my parent’s computer, and guess what, like all kids who hit puberty, they’d start exploring. I had explored many things, which I’ll never talk about in this community because this is a game, which I regretted ( insert lennyface ). I’d start clicking everything. From pirated television shows to the Growtopia Forums. Hahaha...It was fun.



    Till, my mom warned me about something. Malware... and viruses...

    My mind got very curious. Curiousity then turned to anxiety. I clicked on so many things, without knowing the risks. Risks may I say? I learned about malware, sketchy links, signs of malware, effects of malware, the result of identity theft, and I even sought for solutions. ( I had a feeling that I had malware )

    My parent’s computer with malware? I could just imagine how disappointed my parents would be. They’d probably be angry, saddened, and most of all ashamed of the things I did. Aye, embarrassing isn’t it?

    This computer was risking my family’s files and records. Negative thoughts are everywhere on my mind. All of this was kept in me.

    I never did grew tired of thinking about it. And minutes before typing this thread, my parent’s computer faced the black screen of death.

    I am awful.
    But, I’m done hating myself for feeling.
    And, I’m done crying myself awake.
    Now, I have to leave and start the healing...

    [ So, has anyone else faced this type of problems? ]

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    So your parents' computer eventually broke?

    Don't worry about it. You've learned from your mistakes and will be more careful in the future.
    Nothing irreversible happened, right?

    It's just a computer, don't waste your thoughts on it too much.

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    ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

    that's some hot viruses you got there~


    it would be a shame if you didn't use...

    ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

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    Default henlo

    I'm not trying to imply anything but what did you do to get that to happen..

    what do you mean by black screen of death just like not turning on?

    my old pc would give me the blue screen of death every now and again but it was ok

    also like did you download anything or just go onto sketchy websites?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Skullifer View Post
    So your parents' computer eventually broke?

    Don't worry about it. You've learned from your mistakes and will be more careful in the future.
    Nothing irreversible happened, right?

    It's just a computer, don't waste your thoughts on it too much.
    I know... I wished someone taught me about it before all these things happened...

    Quote Originally Posted by Astigmatisme View Post
    ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

    that's some hot viruses you got there~


    it would be a shame if you didn't use...

    ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

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    Quote Originally Posted by MystZ View Post
    I'm not trying to imply anything but what did you do to get that to happen..

    what do you mean by black screen of death just like not turning on?

    my old pc would give me the blue screen of death every now and again but it was ok

    also like did you download anything or just go onto sketchy websites?
    It turns on but you'll only see a black screen and an arrow. That's it.

    Yes, I went to sketchy websites. Some of those websites offered pirated movies.

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    Blue screen of death *
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    Quote Originally Posted by HugeLock View Post
    Blue screen of death *
    https://www.google.com.sg/search?q=b..._AUoAHoECAAQAw

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    Wow, Kyeosi was an explorer and an adventurer.
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    Quote Originally Posted by TobyLerasco View Post
    Wow, Kyeosi was an explorer and an adventurer.
    Yes...yes...yes

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kyeosi View Post
    I know... I wished someone taught me about it before all these things happened...
    You didn't know, it's not your fault.

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    An interesting video

    Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it
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    errrrrrrrr
    have you tried re-installing windows? booting into safe mode?

    "MS-DOS, Windows 95, Windows 98, Windows 2000, Windows ME, Windows XP, Windows Vista, Windows 7, and Windows 8 also display a Black Screen of Death when the operating system cannot boot. This is usually due to a missing file."

    "Often the user must reinstall Windows, if the missing file is critical to the boot process. However, more often than not the boot screen will inform the user of the missing file. If the operating system is compressed, it will not be able to boot, even into safe mode. However, booting from another device and uncompressing the files will usually solve the issue."

    I don't know maybe you could provide a picture? I'm no tech expert but maybe I/someone could help

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    Ελάτε μαζί μας και Καταπολέμηση των ισχυρών, Αδράξτε το μήλο και εκπληρώστε την περιέργειά σας.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Supermarine View Post
    An interesting video

    Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it

    here is the pirated movie site
    https://xmovies8.tv/xmovies8.tv This is not porn I repeat this is not porn) I have been watching this site for years

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    Thank you for the wonderful video. xD
    I watched it.

    Quote Originally Posted by MystZ View Post
    errrrrrrrr
    have you tried re-installing windows? booting into safe mode?

    "MS-DOS, Windows 95, Windows 98, Windows 2000, Windows ME, Windows XP, Windows Vista, Windows 7, and Windows 8 also display a Black Screen of Death when the operating system cannot boot. This is usually due to a missing file."

    "Often the user must reinstall Windows, if the missing file is critical to the boot process. However, more often than not the boot screen will inform the user of the missing file. If the operating system is compressed, it will not be able to boot, even into safe mode. However, booting from another device and uncompressing the files will usually solve the issue."

    I don't know maybe you could provide a picture? I'm no tech expert but maybe I/someone could help
    Yes, it can boot up during safe mode. Though, booting the computer normally would just show an arrow and a black screen. ( sorry I can’t provide pictures from my computer, but I can show how it looks like via Google )

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    Quote Originally Posted by Skullifer View Post
    You didn't know, it's not your fault.
    I wished I knew.

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    this is how exactly i got my first personal laptop

    but ok i dunno what i could help with becuz since this is your parents laptop idk if you dare to hard reset it (and idk if that removes the malware or the blacc screen too)
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    so it's all because of a pc?

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    Quote Originally Posted by IWasWeird View Post
    this is how exactly i got my first personal laptop

    but ok i dunno what i could help with becuz since this is your parents laptop idk if you dare to hard reset it (and idk if that removes the malware or the blacc screen too)
    kids these days really be getting things too early
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    Quote Originally Posted by Liquify View Post
    kids these days really be getting things too early
    i got my first pc when i was 6 LOL but srsly we need them for computer science or idk whatever you call it yes

    (too bad i broke the pc lmao)
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    Quote Originally Posted by IWasWeird View Post
    this is how exactly i got my first personal laptop

    but ok i dunno what i could help with becuz since this is your parents laptop idk if you dare to hard reset it (and idk if that removes the malware or the blacc screen too)
    Really? Woah..

    Quote Originally Posted by Liquify View Post
    so it's all because of a pc?

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    kids these days really be getting things too early
    True ^^^

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    Quote Originally Posted by Supermarine View Post
    here is the pirated movie site
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    I don't think you can post pirated sites here.

    I had done things like that to my family's PC like 5 or 6 times, had been feeling like you many times, so that's kinda normal for me these days. I don't get PC affected anymore though.

    So don't be worried. It'll be fine, internet explorer.
    Started watching anime for real since August 1, 2019 and it seems to be hard to go back to watching western animation since I added too many stuff in my watchlist.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ChickyBro View Post
    I don't think you can post pirated sites here.

    I had done things like that to my family's PC like 5 or 6 times, had been feeling like you many times, so that's kinda normal for me these days. I don't get PC affected anymore though.

    So don't be worried. It'll be fine, internet explorer.
    Woah, thanks for the honest reply Chicky...
    This literally made me feel better. A lot of the posts from this thread actually made me feel greater than before.

    So, thank you to all...

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