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    Default Living with OCD, Depression, and Anxiety.

    So, just had an anxiety attack today and I’m gonna write a story about it now to relieve myself a bit. OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is a mental illness that comes in many different forms:fear of germs, events, thoughts, and I have the most embarrassing one although I don’t want to go into detail about it. OCD is something that can get so severe that it interferes with daily life and functioning. Depression is like when you’re feeling so bored of life that you’re not motivated about anything anymore. When anxiety attacks happen to me, I start to worry excessively and breathe rapidly randomly in everyday situations. After the attack has happened, I start to cry intensely and put my head towards the ground. Sometimes it gets so severe, that I have to punch or slap my face to get back into “reality.” I feel like Diavolo now who has an obsessive fear of the past. It’s like that embarrassing thing you did in 2nd grade, but you took it a really extreme way. I feel so much self guilt and embarrassment that I just want to die now like how Jolyne felt at the beginning of Stone Ocean. OCD is linked with depression as well. I just feel so much self guilt and embarrassment from my thoughts that my whole soul just feels empty now. I have 4 Fs in school now and I started to hang out less with my friends(only at lunch I still talk with them.) During break, I usually meditate in the Zen Garden outside of my school. I felt my life just got trashed, but somehow I still keep on living. This all happened when a group of people who I were good friends with in the last year, just suddenly left without saying anything and now call me weird when I’m just trying to get their attention(I had to do it since they ignored my messages as well.). What sucks even more is that one of my friends who was an actual therapist and one of the few friends I actually developed a “special” friendship with were one of those ppl as well. Yes my old friends were mainly adults who had jobs and family life(maybe adults just don’t know much at how to close a relationship.) I questioned myself how this could happen randomly, but it was just realism. After this one moment, I became so discouraged and more crappy moments started happening to me that there was one time where I panicked and called the cops and they took me to a place where “troubled” kids played together. At the night time, I was transported by an ambulance to a mental hospital where kids came from all types of backgrounds(drug trafficking, violence, depression, and there was also one who tried to run away from home. Most kids there used foul language, but the way they act shows how scarred they are. I had to stay there for a few days before I could go home. When I was about to go home, I had to sign a slip where I couldn’t have the possession of a firearm for 5 years. Few weeks later, I started high school. Ofc in my mind, high school was just like middle school as boring as usual, although there was anime club which only entertained me temporarily. I know people are gonna tell me to move on and that’s in the past, but trust me if you have this condition, it’s almost impossible to forget the past. I feel like continuing anymore, but I just had to see all the other parts of JoJo animated especially Steel Ball Run. While waiting, I was trying to help people from quitting in GT. There was a dude who gained depression and helped others who were suffering depression as-well which I thought was really relatable. I just thought to myself, since my life was so messed up already, I’ll help people that are still hanging on to this world.

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    I feel a bit more relieved after writing this.

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    Perhaps you should start writing in a diary - it is a very effective way to share what is going on and how you are feeling, without having to broadcast to the whole world. Though don't get me wrong, because there isn't anything wrong with sharing how you are feeling on the internet - it is all personal preference. The Growtopia forums may not be the best place for it, however.

    Have you ever checked out this site? It connects you with real people who allow you to talk about whatever you wish and they also offer advice. I think it would be neat to try, even if only once. This is also completely free!

    You could also try starting an Instagram, Twitter, or Tumblr page where you can express how you are feeling while meeting neat people along the way. It's like a fun little portable diary. I have done this before, and it got me through a pretty tough time. It was nice to know that I wasn't alone in the community, and having a page I could rant on and find other people going through the same sorts of struggles was really relieving to me.

    I also struggle with OCD, anxiety and depression. It's unfortunate that there are so many people who suffer with these illnesses, but finding ways to heal and get better is very important. It may not ever go away fully, but management is key. Take one thing at a time. Good luck!
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    Well I know that I’m not alone. Thanks for sharing.

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    I used to have depression, but for a short time. It felt suffocating and just somewhat emotional at times. I had at a young age, I would complain to my mother about it, and she wouldn’t know what to do. It’s good to know I’m not one crazy person.

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    I have to agree with Cloverlord, a diary would be good for you!

    People tend to fade each other. It's insane, very hard to understand and even harder to get over. Though sometimes we do things that are so hard to explain(perhaps caused by personal issues or things we're deeply ashamed of)that we let our pride take over and just ignore the victim.

    It's good to hear you're helping others out, just don't forget yourself. Ignoring your own problems to lift others up is definitely not healthy, so the smartest thing to do now is to set your own mental health as number one.

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    It's okay to not be okay. Just focus on the good in life, and help others see it aswell. But your number one priority should always ALWAYS be yourself. Never lose track of your own mental health, as it's just as important as your physical health. I'm not diagnosed or anything but honestly, things can get pretty dark. It's good to have people by your side to support you, and make sure you don't lose sight of what's truly important (yourself). We should definitely talk some time (: Also I do reccomend keeping a diary, whether it be on paper or online, it may help more than you think.
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    yea we should it would be nice

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    Kanna.. I fought depression alone, anxiety still have it.
    Look if I can fight depression alone you can too(also don't ever think of death thingies)
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    Quote Originally Posted by Axzyte View Post
    Kanna.. I fought depression alone, anxiety still have it.
    Look if I can fight depression alone you can too(also don't ever think of death thingies)
    won't work on everyone, but thanks

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    Are you diagnosed?, you should see a therapist for you safety
    this is boring
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    im sorry but can you please use paragraph breaks it hurts my eyes
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    Quote Originally Posted by Astigmatisme View Post
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    Quote Originally Posted by Astigmatisme View Post
    im sorry but can you please use paragraph breaks it hurts my eyes
    I'm sorry, but can you please wash your face once in a while

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    Hey Kanna what's your ign? Just wondering.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Axzyte View Post
    Kanna.. I fought depression alone, anxiety still have it.
    Look if I can fight depression alone you can too(also don't ever think of death thingies)
    no you don't, you and OP just self-diagnosed yourselves with depression, anxiety, go see a real doctor, if this is real.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Axzyte View Post
    Kanna.. I fought depression alone, anxiety still have it.
    Look if I can fight depression alone you can too(also don't ever think of death thingies)
    " death thingies " is this a joke to you? seriously, go see a proper doctor.

    seeing this thread just triggers me like get actual proper medication and help PLEASEEEEE.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Devours View Post
    no you don't, you and OP just self-diagnosed yourselves with depression, anxiety, go see a real doctor, if this is real.
    Signs exists. Everyone can be aware of the signs. And no, not a doctor.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Megamilk View Post
    " death thingies " is this a joke to you? seriously, go see a proper doctor.

    seeing this thread just triggers me like get actual proper medication and help PLEASEEEEE.
    Shes literally not saying death is a joke. Shes just trying to make him look on the other perspective.

    And again, not a doctor.
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    You go to a therapist not a doctor
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    Quote Originally Posted by Megamilk View Post
    " death thingies " is this a joke to you? seriously, go see a proper doctor.

    seeing this thread just triggers me like get actual proper medication and help PLEASEEEEE.
    Shut up Doo-doo milk
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    Quote Originally Posted by Devours View Post
    no you don't, you and OP just self-diagnosed yourselves with depression, anxiety, go see a real doctor, if this is real.
    I’m sorry devours, but can you read it one more time. Because it seems you’ve only read the title.

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